Your Committed Non- Committed relationship!

so what is a serious relationship to you? is it being committed to one person for your duration of your relationship? or just not having sex with everyone else except that one person?what does it mean to you? Here (America) it seems that everyone wants a committed non committed relationship just sex and if you have a kid on well its by accident! then you find a new person to be with instead of making the one your in work. why does everyone not want to be in a relationship is everyone going back to their primal instincts are just making babies doesn't matter with who?  and just leaving it to the mother to raise them? How is it for you? Really look at your situation!

love this forever

So he wants nothing to do with her because he just now had his son! what a immature person! So now she might hear from him on christmas and her birthday! and he thinks that ill fly out there to see him? he is smoking something seriosuly because hes proabably gonna forget all about emily with his new son that he has to mold into a mini version of himself and probably when i have moved on and found a nice man who she starts calling daddy hes gonna get all butt hurt and wonder why she doesnt know him....oh because he wanted nothing to do with her at his point because he want convient to him! well w.e there is nothing i can do right?

you know whats funny how you meet someone you really like you can see a future with.....then things get messed up your future disappears with that person. And is it wrong to like someone who is almost 20 years older than you? do people judge you for that? or is it when you get into your mid 20s the age thing goes away for most of us?

Intense or not intense enough?

What is better a guy who is too intense or a guy who is not intense enough? Is there a happy medium? And the biggest question have you ever had sex with love? Looking back at the partners i have had i dont think i could truly say that there was any love making no kissing cuddling, foreplay just plain out sex.....and if your use to that can you change as a person and start letting that kind of affection into your life? or are you going to be so scared of change that you run from it?Is all this learned behaviors or genetics? How can we change for the better or let the other person know that we arnt really like that and hope that they will still stick around? 

i love this hate

Ok so im again done with games. Obviously you need to get your life straight and if your going to avoid me then just say something and we can end this. I love this hate relationship now its awkward and just plain weird. Ah but on a good note i cant wait till fall the smell, the rain, the cloudy-iness lol. Ever feel like you need a change of scenery? i do all the time i need green and trees. I think maybe living out of a suitcase is bad too? i think i own more dvds then i do clothes. Also its funny how most guys have more clothes than me. And life is what it is, we can only try to alter our future but the past is the past and can never change it just learn from it. 

you gonna play that on me!

So i really really wish guys would just say what they want! im tired of the games......oh i dont know if i want a relationship but i wouldnt mind friends with benefits.....ugh w.e im done with games. You know i really think its guys who have a fear of commitment. Maybe women should just say forget it and use guys for sex? oh wait then they would be called sluts but guys can do it! so the big delema is what should i do? what should i be looking for? I HAVE NO IDEA!!!!

Just say it so i can feel the rest of my heart being ripped out

You know sometimes we never say what we truly mean in our hearts....we also let other influence our decisions and that is sad......if we want something then we should buck up and say it! instead of letting other people rule us. we are all capable human beings with our own thoughts and feeling and to let others influence us is sad, but it happens everyday and ruins alot of relationships that would probably work out if people would just let each other alone, but again we are human and most of us love the drama of everyday life. even though alot of us say " i  hate drama". It is there in some form and so we have it weather we like it or not.
So back to my point the whole dating thing on the internet sucks! Most of the people are fake and say they want one thing but its really another! Oh and kids forget about it. If you have one a guy doesnt even want to touch you! They say its not about looks, but we all know it really is! and its funny how you find a guy you fall in love with and hes either in a different state or country....... makes me a lil sad! It is so hard in life to find your other half? Tell me? Is It? cause i know what i want, what i need, and that i can take care of my own. A person who has my heart would just be that added bonus. This is how i think about it if i can find that person i cannot live without and who is my other half and i cannot be away from him and the same with me. and when were old and gray we still stare at each other and are in love even more than we were when we first meet.....than i know i have meet the person im supposed to be with for the rest of my life but in this day and age and in life that seems harder to find even though technology is striving more and more than we can think.......so why is it so hard?

The thoughts in my head.....

So ive been trying to figure out lately why i am the way i am? i know most of the answers but not all of them. Could it really be gentics or just simple a learned behavior? I like to move...so is it from someone in my family or just something i picked up in my life? i cant decide, i dont think there are any travelers in my family...so as far as i know i have no idea. I know where i get the whole fall off the face of the earth for years at a time. which i think is a good thing, because the world has shown me that ive been right in leaving for a while because it never gets better and it only gets worse.....now i dont leave when life gets hard i stick it out till its better, i actually want to leave when life is great....lol the complete opposite of it.....weird right? I dont know and guys have simply proven to not be worth it these days....what happened to good old fashioned lets wait to get to know eachother before going that step further......opening doors, actually planning the date, dinner, or even lunch....maybe a coffee....what happened? i think men expect women to do everything now a days....and only want sex because its ok in this age and society...i personally think it sucks and that life should get back to when things had a proper way of being done....